can’t a man get a break?!
so today yet, another infection. Well potentially two. E-coli tested positive for one area, and they were doing pet and ct scans for another because they suspect something is a brewing in his thoracic region. One of the nurses had the gall to ask my mom and say that she could reject treatment, and let the patient just end the suffering..to which she said no way. If I can we can do anything in our power to help, then we will do so. But tonight when I went to visit her, she did choke up at times. We picked out a photo of him, just in case, and my mom said she’s going to pick out a suit as well. I helped pick out a photo, but reminded her that it’s waay too early, and dad will pull through, so enough of this nonsense. But you know moms, always planning…always prepared. So today was a bit emotionally draining. I stayed there till past midnight again, helping out where I can. He is lucid now and I requested they at least remove his restraints (at least while I was present). But after I left, the nurse thought that she didn’t need to restrain him again. Being back to 1mg of morphine per hour probably helps out a lot in the ‘confusion’ department.
Physically, though week, he seems fine and was able to hold my hand many times throughout the night. He said that I should go home, but I told him I was afraid if I left they’d restrain his hands again and he said ‘cam on’ (which translates to thank you) in Vietnamese. I think that’s when I choked up. Told him he never has to thank me, it should be me that thanked him…and I couldn’t finish my sentence….I really wanted to thank him for teaching me so much. And for driving me to all the way up to USC every week, and doing all the things that Dad’s do. Never got past ,’thank you’ though. But yeah…man….some light at the end of the tunnel would be a little nice. We’re going to wait a few days to get more test results to see where this will end up. A different set of antibiotics to treat the e-coli is already in play, and really what comes down to is this abnormality in the chest area. Arrrrggggggg… I just want him home.